Reflections From the Lake Ripples
Indian Lake, Ohio
In the stillness of the morning, there are few people on the lake as the sun finds its place overhead. It's so quiet the only sound is the lapping of the waves against the boat as we proceed forward idly. I close my eyes as I turn my face towards the sun, its warmth spreads across my body, making its presence known.
"Thank you, Lord." I whispered under my breath.
This year has brought so many hardships and challenges that have tested me to my core. But this moment filled me with a peace and understanding that assured me I am right where I'm meant to be.
As the summer comes to a close and fall creeps in closer, I have been spending as much time soaking it all up as possible. Camping has been difficult this year with my arm still not quite performing at its previous capabilities. One pound seems to be the limit, and if I attempt to carry anything heavier than that, it fatigues my arm and causes swelling and pain that is long-lasting.
This trip reminded me that I am human and do not have superhuman strength. It also reminded me that life is short, and making the most of every moment you have is what matters more than anything else.
I am at a weird age...we are enjoying the lives of empty nesters with the foster kids all grown and living their own lives, but at the same time, we are holding our friends up as they lay their parents to rest. New life on one side, death on the other.
As I get closer and closer to my upcoming birthday, I have realized that there is more life behind me than likely what lies before me. This reality has instilled a sense of urgency to make sure that I am right with God in all facets of my life. That everything I do is pleasing to Him, and Him alone.
As I sat on the water and stared at the reflections in the ripples of the lake, I exhaled a sigh of relief as I once again surrendered my control to God. I am free from the shackles of regret and shame. They do not pull me down any longer.
I am reminded of the calling He has placed upon my heart and the need for obedience in this moment. The legacy I leave behind for others is one I hope instills hope for generations to come. My books are valuable life lessons I've learned and how God has brought me through the hardships I've faced. I share them, not to brag or boast about my life, but to be a guiding light out of the darkness others are stuck in.
I may not have fulfilled my greatest dream of being a biological mother, but I have achieved more dreams than I ever thought possible. For that, I am ever grateful.
Friend, life is short. Pause, reflect, and spend time in the presence of God. The peace that comes with the nearness of the Lord is one that is everlasting.
With Grace, Shonda Ramsey